Not having help with hard too. That wasn't anyone's fault - D had to take the job that was offered and it just happened to be out of town. My mom wasn't able to be up here when she had planned on it, my sister had her own job and life to deal with, and my friends were busy. But I absolutely won't have another child unless I have a strong support system in place. Not having anyone to turn to after 4 straight days in baby isolation with constant crying, no sleep and crazy hormones is not healthy. I remember watching D's truck pull away on Monday morning as he drove to Cooper Landing for the week and feeling the rising panic in my chest that I would try to dampen. Knowing that Friday was a very long way away.
I read this article and was like, yes, someone gets it! http://www.babble.com/baby/colic-dealing-with-crying-baby-harm-to-parents/ This paragraph sums up where D and I are now very succinctly:
"We’re also still more cautious than other parents we know. For months, we’d both get jumpy from just a little normal “I’m hungry” or “I’m tired” crying. It was weeks after colic was over before we started taking the baby out with friends. We still plan our lives around naps or bedtimes, and I’m sure our friends think we’re overprotective."I am SO protective of Boyd's sleep! If we go out to eat, I make my family meet up no later than 5:30 so we can finish up and be home by 7 p.m. for Boyd's bedtime. I won't sacrifice naps for fun activities, it's just not worth it.
I look at this face and thank our lucky stars that Boyd is here, but it was a rough road.
